endings

Here I am again facing an anger and fear that is not my own.
Here I am again repeating old patterns that crush my soul.
​Every time I think I've made a step, every time I feel I've moved along, every time I know it's for the best, every time I break ~ 17 year old Mark Ashmore

I've written songs since childhood. A musical journal of longing, angst, hope and sadness which was my way of expressing shadows I feared and doorways I couldn't muster the courage to enter. But recently this old song I wrote has been playing in my head. As we approach this upcoming new moon we are at a collective precipice. This new moon begins the eclipse season ahead and has much to say about the past and what we are all holding onto and more importantly being asked to end.

Magha is a moon that casts us backward to ancestry. To the lines, traditions, expectations and trauma of our bloodlines and genetics. It is here we are entrenched in a family of karma and past actions that has to play out and places our current lives where we are. Our race, economic position, health, habits etc are governed by this line and force us into an institution that governs our fate to some degree. Of course under universal law this is already decided but on a human level it can often feel unfair or limiting to some degree. 

The vedic master David Frawley writes about Magha "The importance of moving beyond physical forms and structures comes out here." So as much as we deeply need to honour our ancestry and pay respect to it for surviving and thriving us into being we are also called to embrace our inner sovereignty and now leave it behind to move forward. So over the next day or two meditate on your past and particularly why you do the things you do that aren't consciously embedded in soul and now it is time to bow to them, thank them and let them go.

Stay light.
Mark :)