 Here I am again facing an anger and fear that is not my own.
Here I am again repeating old patterns that crush my soul. Every time I think I've made a step, every time I feel I've moved along, every time I know it's for the best, every time I break ~ 17 year old Mark Ashmore I've written songs since childhood. A musical journal of longing, angst, hope and sadness which was my way of expressing shadows I feared and doorways I couldn't muster the courage to enter. But recently this old song I wrote has been playing in my head. As we approach this upcoming new moon we are at a collective precipice. This new moon begins the eclipse season ahead and has much to say about the past and what we are all holding onto and more importantly being asked to end. Magha is a moon that casts us backward to ancestry. To the lines, traditions, expectations and trauma of our bloodlines and genetics. It is here we are entrenched in a family of karma and past actions that has to play out and places our current lives where we are. Our race, economic position, health, habits etc are governed by this line and force us into an institution that governs our fate to some degree. Of course under universal law this is already decided but on a human level it can often feel unfair or limiting to some degree. The vedic master David Frawley writes about Magha "The importance of moving beyond physical forms and structures comes out here." So as much as we deeply need to honour our ancestry and pay respect to it for surviving and thriving us into being we are also called to embrace our inner sovereignty and now leave it behind to move forward. So over the next day or two meditate on your past and particularly why you do the things you do that aren't consciously embedded in soul and now it is time to bow to them, thank them and let them go. Stay light. Mark :)
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 Don't lose your faith in me
And I will try not to lose faith in you Don't put your trust in walls 'Cause walls will only crush you when they fall Be, Be here now, here now ~Ray Lamontagne From an astrologers perspective I can't recall the amount of times I've been asked in desperation this year 'Mark, what is happening in the stars?!' (in comparison to other years). As a chainsaw trims a cherished Hibiscus outside my window as I type I think this describes the year thus far. We are being pruned, cut back and it's loud, irritating and why won't it stop?! And as I tried to persevere through the chainsaw-ery and was beginning to come into a reactive/judgemental state I realised: hey, there are other rooms in this house and I can change my environment/mindset instantly to something more preferable (and peaceful). And this my friends/readers brings me to our upcoming full moon. The sun in Ashlesha is bringing up our poison (so watch what and how you say what you want at present) and across the earth the moon is in Shravana. With Mercury (our comms) and Saturn (our karma) retrograde we are being asked to step back. Not into the past. To step back from the momentum. To not continue the past and its trajectory. These spirals we find ourselves sinking down, these drains we keep, are no longer if we don't want them and now we have the opportunity to pause the continuity. A Shravana full moon is asking you to look at the poison arising (that wants to come up and out, not go back in and store) and listen to the wisdom of what it has to offer. Shravana has a symbol of the ear. The receptivity of hearing is a passive one. The active state of listening is one that requires understanding and paying attention. It is a process of both this full moon. Take in what you hear at present - the pain and the lessons of the past, then listen to what your inner compass/soul/intuition is asking of you to step into/out of. Remember a spiral can move in either direction. As the environmentalist prophet of 90s morning television Captain Planet once said: the power is yours. Stay light, Mark :) |